More KAZ Changes

Okay, so I'm a really bad blogger. Its been 8 months. I think if I wrote something everyday I would just obsess and be impatient. That being said........ we continue to wait. Our dossier was finally sent to Kaz in July (after the loooooooooooong wait due to new procedures and only one dossier per agency going to the Consulate in NYC per month as compared to the 10+ they used to send). We understand that we are literally in the air via fedex somewhere on the way to Kaz. WPA said we may go as soon as this year which is really freaking us out. We had April -June 2010 in our heads. Its been something we talk about and that always seems so far away - but perhaps by this Christmas- aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Calgon, take me away. We haven't set up a nursery, talked to Human Resources, picked baby names, etc. We haven't done anything. Its suddenly becoming real.

Of course, we are nervous. We tell ourselves we are too old, question if we ready, blah, blah, blah, blah. Again, I think back to all I read about feelings you would experience during this process. I shrugged those off and I can honestly say that the adoption books and our agency were spot on. I thought once the dossier went, I would relax. People said the waiting is the worst part. Not me - I'll be just fine. But I am growing impatient, frustrated and worried that something will happen to prevent the dream. We want a family and to become parents.

Of course, we got another bit of bad news this week. New laws in Kaz' parliment coming down the pipeline. Black cloud over us, perhaps? Age requirements changing and number of visits to country increasing. If passed, we may have to accept an older child and take more trips during a longer period of time to complete the adoption process. You feel like you are being tested to see if you'll just hang in there. Sometimes I feel that God is giving me training in being patient so I'll be a good Mom! We are hanging in there. The reality is that Kaz is trying hard to keep kids in their country and to help Kaz families keep their kids and/or adopt through new services. You have to salute them for that. But you also have to feel for the many many children who are going to stay in institutional homes if they are not adopted.

Guess its time to do the prep. We can be told in a really short amount of time that we have a invitation to travel, that we need to get on a plane in 2 weeks, etc. So we need to get our act together. Time to pick up the crib from Aunt Denise in Charlotte and start getting those used clothes, toys, car seats, etc from friends and family.

Is this really happening? So surreal!